Hey dad. Why don’t you call me like you do grandma every week? Don’t you want to hear from me instead of her how my life is going? Don’t you want to know what I’m doing every day where I’ve been how my job is going what my goals are what I do on the weekends that I’ve died my hair twice or that I go to comedy shows in new Orleans every week or that I’m 24 now not married no kids went to school didn’t completely screw up. Don’t you want to know my personality and what I like and don’t like? Do you even know what I’m allergic to? How about that I let a guy buy me my first tattoo on a whim. Or that the doctor says my heart has a flutter but it’s just something to keep an eye on. Or that I dont eat enough and have “syncope” because I pass out? Or that I don’t like pickles on my sandwiches. Or how I miss you and love you so much but don’t care anymore because you don’t show that you do care. I don’t call you anymore because I tried for years to keep a relationship with you. But you have no reason to NOT talk to me. So what you live in a different state you have a damn phone and you are 50 something years old grow up and realize you have a family I won’t even get started on how I feel about how you aren’t involved in your own grand kids lives. YOU left all of us. And YOU don’t keep up with us. Why is that? I honestly dont care If this upsets you. Because I have hurt for years and where were you? Not here and with little effort. I have so many issues with relationships and I truly believe it is your fault. So called “daddy” issues yep that’s me I have them…. I’m on anxiety medicine did you know that? No you know nothing about me. I trust no one because every one screws you over just never thought I would have to be one of the many kids who doesn’t have a father who was involved in their life. You have missed everything and if you don’t change your going to miss out on the rest of my life this is going to be my last attempt to try and make a connection with you. But if your not willing…. Good luck and I love you.

I’m afraid to see a single light in the dark. I won’t look at it. Terrifies me to think I would see something pass in front. Truth

~Scarlet~

A guy (acquaintance) I went to highschool with, haven’t seen in years, on my FB, asked me out to drinks one night, last Thursday. Would it be a coincidence that I would be hanging out with his sister right now because of mutual friend and same place same time? Makes me wonder…. Think that’s just the hopeful, weird, that womanly, what we are pretty much here for, the kinda go for it feeling…. Just rambling. We haven’t gone yet but am considering. Hmmm

ok screw the fictional characters story crap im just going to ramble…… I am a red head, I have an attitude (which is to be expected), I bite my nails, I have thighs, no ass, Im pushy, needy, and make assumptions about everything all day outloud or in my head, I dont like the smell of cabbage, and red beans are only good for the sausage, I like my hair pulled and being bit, Im not a fan of anal but will give the man Im with some kind of effort in attempts, freak but sweet ha ha, bugs freak me out, walking through spiderwebs at night is the creepiest thing, I cant sleep in socks or when its hot and I like to be cuddled, morning sex makes for a great day :-), I drink a lot of sweet tea and not enough water. I have two best friends one lives in Florida the other Ive been sleeping with for a year in half (which makes for a not so easy clean break), Im very good at blow jobs and enjoy giving them if there is limited hairiness, Im vulgar, always gutter minded, and curse to much, I am lazy but work full time, I dont have a lot of friends, and my family is so dysfunctional we see each other only a handful of times a year (which I guess has become the norm nowadays) I have been in love twice but the first time was a flop, I need reassurance for everything because of that I blame my parents, I wish I was closer relationship wise to all my friends but thats not possible with people growing up and having families, me Im single (sort of) no kids never been married pushing twenty five times ticking and part of me is fine with that. I have trouble committing to things, people, places, but it works for me right now. I live with my mother for the first time in 6 years which is why I take happy pills now, I have goals but goals require money and savings which Im either not good at or cant get it together cuz Broke all the time. Well ending this now going bowling

KISS: keep it simple stupid

~Scarlet~

Let’s just get it out there and say most people are afraid of the word “sex”. It does not matter how “natural” it may be, it is an awkward subject for most. Why? As a redhead, I myself have no problem talking about the subject. I would like to be on this site to tell about my experiences, challenges, and events that happen in my life. I want to put it into a “story” type situation with fictional names. All stories will be true and it will be mostly me rambling I’m sure, but it’s up to you to read or pass on by.  I hope you enjoy what you read in the future, but for now I am going to prepare for this bad weather heading this way. ~Scarlet~